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Ive kinda considered quiet quitting mg transition, I feel like few take it serrious, and my friends that do it feels like they are just being nice to me cause they feel bad that my dreams just are not possible. At this point ive kinds reached the idea that I’ll just boymode forever and hope they silently change my ID back to male so I can just go back into the closet while still on HRT since its so far in the past 2 years made virtually zero difference for me. I dont wanna get off hrt but at the same time, I know I’ll never be seen my general population as a women. I just feel like its too late since I started at 200+ lbs and fat couldn’t redistirube properly so ive permently missed out of stuff like hips and more femine views. Someone here acually said I didn’t look a day over 35, I’m 22. I just feel like being in the closet and just looking like a nobody dude, who avoids talking to people is the best course of action. If I’m lucky the second hand smoke I grew up with will kill me when I’m 40.
You’re fucking 22. The human body is immensely maleable, and you have an enormous amount of time. HRT doesn’t change your body. It dictates how your body will tend to change. The fat on your body isn’t moved into a more feminine shape. Your new hormonal makeup will cause you to burn old fat and deposit new fat in different places and ways. If you dedicate yourself to changing your body, your body will change into a feminine shape. Stop dooming yourself before you’ve taken yourself seriously and given yourself the time and effort you deserve. I’m in my mid 30s. I assumed, based on both research and online anecdotes, that my hips wouldn’t change much if at all. This winter I’m gonna need all new pants. The pants that fit my slightly softer hips last year barely hold me now. I have no comfortable pants because I changed more than the data suggested I would. Start taking yourself seriously. Give yourself the same respect you would give a sympathetic stranger. You’ll beat me to thriving by a decade.
I was overweight when I started hrt too. Your fat can still redistribute. The fat you have isn’t going to move on its own and that’s the case for everyone. In order to get fat to move you need to lose it and then gain it again. I started dieting and exercising after I got on HRT and I lost a lot of weight from my waist and that’s already made me feel more feminine.
I think I should get off hrt until I loose weight
Losing weight while on T is going to cause your body add/remove weight in masculine areas. It’s much better for you to stay on HRT while losing weight so that way you end up with a feminine figure.
What I’m gathering eaother way I’m gonna be stuck with this for a few years regardless, and since I lost at the genetic lottery I I feel like its not possible once so ever
Time marches on regardless. You could work on yourself or you could do nothing. Do you want to be where you are today 5 years from now?
Sky are you in contact with your doctor and/or a therapist? Even your nutritionist (at your GP).
There’s value to having weight in transition but there’s also some troubleshooting that is better left to a medical professional. Fat redistribution happens when fat is gained and lost. Our bodies aren’t automatic.
Holy shit someone tried to guess your age? ☠️ never guess a woman’s age dummy.
Sorry you’re having a rough time of it. Don’t let your ability to remain confident about passing (euphoria vs dysphoria) put your transition back on the shelf. I’m just gonna keep reminding you these posts are dysphoria. This is mental unwellness speaking louder than your logical mindful brain can.
I currently use a telehealth doctor to get my E, unfortunately I dont have insurance so proper healthcare has been out of reach.
