Why can’t I just be normal. Why do I have to be so zoned in. Why does my attention never go beyond my own skin.

  • iamdisillusioned@lemmy.world
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    23 days ago

    Sorry you’re feeling that. It is so frustrating to feel like the people who you need to help you aren’t listening.

    For the last 7 years I’ve been going to doctors to figure out a handful of random symptoms; fatigue, headaches, dizziness, nausea, irritability. The symptoms would come and go but were very disruptive when I had them. In 7 years, I’ve spent thousands of dollars. I’ve seen doctors, naturopaths, therapists, psychiatrists, endocrinologists. No one has ever given me any insight into what is going on. I’ve gotten very good at explaining my symptoms concisely but that didn’t change the care I received. I’ve been extra irritable lately and I finally decided to get a full physiological evaluation and while I was awaiting my results I realized I have autism and ADHD and that I’ve been dealing with meltdowns and burnout. No wonder no one could diagnose me, burnout is not really a recognized medical condition. I feel like I lost a huge chunk of my life and that I only figured out how to improve my health because there are so many people telling their stories on social media.

    Sorry to highjack your post, but I just had this huge breakthrough and I want to shout it from the rooftops but also don’t want to tell anyone I know IRL. 😬

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      23 days ago

      Not hijacking, sharing. It’s life-changing, but can also be frustrating. You have to let go of the past, because the present will present you with plenty of difficulty even knowing what’s wrong. But there’s joy, and love too. And part of that comes from telling people you know.

      I encourage you to take a risk on someone you feel has the empathetic ability to receive the information you have. If there isn’t someone, then try a therapist, they’re good at listening and you have no history with them, a perfect combo!