One thing I will say about it is that it’s very much in the mind. If you’re stressed or anxious in any way, it makes it harder to get into things. Which of course makes you more anxious.

Since you seem to be overwhelmed and misanthropic (no judgement!) at the moment, you’d probably be worrying and overthinking it too much to enjoy it. So if you want to try sex in some way in the future, I’d recommend working on your health first. Go outside. Exercise. Eat and sleep healthily. That kind of thing.