Hey there.
As the title says, don’t you feel frustrated whenever a new video comes along and it’s just a blurry pixel doing mundane things?
15 years ago I saw something extraordinary, something that I tear up by just remembering. I won’t go into details because why would I? I’m a stranger on the internet and my experience has no weight cept for me. But I know what I saw, and I truly wonder why nobody ever caught something like that with a camera.
Video after video after images come out and all that I’m left saying to myself is “that’s not it”.
I’m just frustrated that the hallucination hypothesis is the best explanation for my sighting at this point.
how do you cope with that?
I recognise when I have expectations and don’t invest in them.
What would be the worst that could happen for you? I would guess it might be something like: you go your whole life never seeing any photo that represents what you saw, nobody believes you, nobody cares, you never have any movement forward in your understanding of your experience, you die just as confused as the day after your experience. Is that really a problem? You’re still going to (presumably) have food to eat, a roof over your head, etc. So don’t worry about your lack of understanding. Expect nothing.
Yes, I obviously go on with my life. I don’t have ‘I want to believe’ posters in my house or anything.
But from time to time I remember what I saw and I can’t help but try and figure out an answer.
Understandable. Reminds me of a quote from Whitley Streiber:
“Learn to live at a high level of uncertainty. Only by doing this will we begin to gain the rigorously clear and objective outlook we need to perceive what is happening correctly.” – Whitley Streiber, quoted in Jim DeKorne, ‘Psychedelic Shamanism’, p.55