Ambii [she/her, they/them]

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Cake day: July 23rd, 2024

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  • validity and body dysphoria

    Some days I still wonder if I’m really trans or if I convinced myself of something something something.

    Those same days I struggle to hold back tears as I stare at my own legs and compare them to my girlfriend’s and think about how much hair removal I need to pass a vibe check in the mirror.

    Such is life ig


    In happier news I finished my last session of laser for this round and I’m really happy with the results. Gotta wait a few days or 2 weeks or so to let it grow out and see how it actually looks now so I can get a new referral. Gonna try and see if I can sneak the little hairs between my eyebrows as well as my sideburns in the referral.








  • in my feelings

    Re-watched I saw the tv glow 2 weeks ago with my girlfriend and it fucking destroyed me the second time around. Really took me by surprise because I didn’t even tear up the first watch.

    Same week I started sobbing from the pain during my laser session, like I was a total mess. I absolutely could not stop it from happening and It’s not something that ever happened to me pre transition.

    Today I connected just a little too hard with a song and started crying on my drive home.

    E has turned me into a crybaby and I fucking love it. I love crying. Why? No clue, maybe it’s because it’s a sign that my emotions are actually available to me now.


    Ya girl also started stimulants last week and today I doubled my dosage from 5mg to 10mg and I feel so so so emotionally energized.

    2024 Pt.2 is looking up for me.