yep - i see that now. idk why i had the mindset they were for publication at some point. it feels throughout that she is talking to a group of people

have you ever thought maybe i’m going to draw a different conclusion about a person than you? based on what i’ve read, she was very fortunate, and i was much less so. so i will see her as ungrateful while also struggling with my depression, same as the author

why are you trying to school me. i have depression and anxiety. it’s more constant for me than it was for the author

ok, this is what i was looking for. yes i was thinking more of a memoir, i’ve been reading joan didion a lot. i see now

i HAVE depression.