mar_k [he/him]

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Cake day: February 19th, 2023

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  • people who say that have either never owned a cat or never truly tried to bond with theirs. my cat rubs on me and purrs when i’m crying, guards the bathroom door when i’m taking a shit, and freaks out meowing and scratching on the door like i’m drowning when i shower

    she also has full on separation anxiety from me even though my mom’s the one who feeds her and stuff. the first couple weeks i was away for college she got depressed and full on neglected herself, not eating as much and looking mangy because she barely groomed herself. last time she heard my voice over the phone she meowed and searched the house all confused :/











  • supporting a ceasefire does not at all mean you’re pro-palestine. most EU countries voted for the UN deal months and months before all while supporting israel. plenty of zionists want a conditional deal where israel’s hostages are returned and palestine’s colonial subjugation and apartheid continue, just not as overtly.

    found a poll from this week that 60% of americans support continuing military aid to israel. and you can’t assume the 40% against it are against it on principled grounds, many of them are simply isolationists who don’t want their taxpayer money going to other countries



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    i was 13 in 2017 and back then when getting to know each other, we’d ask each other normal things; favorite rapper or artist, favorite sports player, favorite youtuber, etc. ik someone who works with younger teens now and says one half-jokingly asked the group “favorite male model,” and several boys said “chico” and someone went on a bit how his cheekbones, facial harmony, hunter eyes, canthal tilt, whatever are “perfect,” and someone else was arguing his favorite model mogs him.

    these kids deadass make/watch tiktok looksmaxxing edits of male supermodels they admire and/or envy. it’s usually partly ironic and they laugh around when they talk about these things but obviously they still seem to buy into it, seems like boys now are insanely more obsessed and conscious about looks than they used to be, often to the point of dysmorphia. their judgements on face features also feel like just straight up racist phrenology


  • vent: i’ve dealt with severe untreated ADHD (with time blindness as symptom) for years, and while i’m overall much better at punctuality now, it took a couple years of therapy, lifestyle changes, and systems (and more recently meds). i’ve long been well aware this is something i struggle with that ‘normal’ people with an infinitely less chaotic brain simply see as “not caring enough” or “not trying hard enough.” same way i was told growing up, “if it was important to you, you would’ve remembered.” that’s true for them; they only know how their own brains work, they don’t got a clue what it’s like to be flat out incapable of prioritizing their thoughts

    i was late often in elementary, like half of middle school, and most mornings of high school. i was never carefree about it; i had racing anxiety from it every time and somehow still constantly did it to myself. my first year at uni i skipped a fuck ton of lectures, even after walking all the way there, solely because i was too embarrassed to walk in late for the 20th time. i isolated myself and rejected invitations largely because i was afraid i’d make people feel i didn’t value their time

    ADHD isn’t just some quirky personality thing most NTs think it is. ADHD made me skip meals nearly daily because i either forgot to eat or i’d put off cooking because it was just another painful chore. ADHD made me get 0-5 hours of sleep on a regular basis because my brain would not quiet down until i collapsed

    tbh i often wish i could see a neurotypical live with my brain chemistry for a day, i bet they’d have a breakdown alone from the 2-3 inner monologues and nonstop earworm all on top of each other at every waking moment lmao



  • subconsciously liberals almost always seem to avoid language that seems too “forceful,” even when it comes to basic human rights. insisting on any means is authoritarian and something the trumpies do

    they must vote, pray, and compromise (their dignity). when it doesn’t work out, they blame disillusioned non-voters and go into waiting for the next election, where they’ll proudly choose the oligarchs that promise stagnation over regression every 2 years for the rest of their lives and wonder why everything keeps getting worse