I am absolutely exhausted with me and my kid’s ADHD. My wife is always upset at us because we can’t remember shit and I’ve spent my life feeling guilty because nobody will ever just give me a break.

I’m expected to be “on” at all times and I just can’t do it forever. Sometimes I just need to do things my own, likely inefficient way, but at least at home it usually ends in being berated because I didn’t do it “the right way”.

It’s so insanely demoralizing. I don’t even want to bother trying at anything because it will only be met with derision. What’s even the point. Fuck it all.

Shit like that is why I still dream of disappearing forever to be alone and just left to my own devices.

Thanks for letting me vent. Just so tired.