• Kyrgizion@lemmy.world
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    17 days ago

    I’ve been struggling with my mental health for a long time and I need some type of “win” or “hope”, but I currently have none sadly.

    I had a coworker I was somewhat close to and could vent to. She just got fired (budget cuts).

    I mustered the courage to finally set up therapy again after many years, after a few very negative experiences with “caregivers”. First meeting was pretty awesome, second was cancelled by them due to illness. It happens, no judgment there. But they would call back before last weekend for a new appointment, and never did. I just got shadowdumped again, didn’t I? What the hell is so offputting about me that even people who get paid to help me won’t give me the light of day?

    As for a future, that just got robbed from us. 20 years plus if you’re 40, more if you’re younger. We will never get those years back.

    On top of that a myriad of mental and physical aillents, medical debt and no sight for any realistic kind of relief in the near future and… yeah, it’s really hard to keep finding reasons to keep going when life is really firing those melon-sized lemons at ya with the speed of a vulcan cannon.

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      17 days ago

      Man I’m sorry to hear that. I’m not going to pretend to know how you feel or give you hollow “I understand” or “it’s going to be okay” promises because I can’t back them up, and yeah the next few months are going to be proper shit.

      All I can tell you is that having known you for half a dozen paragraphs on a phone screen, I already care about you more than that bumbling punchable arse piece that is going to make life difficult for a couple of years, and I think it’d be super cool if you stayed around a while.

      I can’t promise you wonders, but I do hope you find your way.

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      17 days ago

      Man, I know a lot of us are in a really dark place right now. I really hope that’s all this is. I feel it bro. The crushing fucking anxiety of 4 years of Trump wondering every god damn day if he can possible dream up a way to be even more vile and every. god. damned. day. the answer is yes.

      Like, it hasn’t even started yet and I already know he’s going to horrify me anew a minimum of once a week before he gets into office.

      But … that’s not all there is, man. It sounds like you’re in a rough personal situation. And I’m sorry. I know Trump is just the sprinkles on that shit sandwich. But there are good things in this world, and there are good things you can do as part of it. If you’re in it. Stay with us.

      You matter.

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        17 days ago

        I’m about to check out too

        Please don’t.

        There are valid reasons to want to leave.

        I don’t disagree, but the reasons to stay are more compelling. You never know when you’ll get to be the right person in the right place at the right time who to help someone else avoid some suffering they don’t deserve, but you’ve gotta be here to do that.

        If nothing else, procrastinate on it for a bit. You can always change your mind later.

        e; typo