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They made it so much worse. Essentially any person you encounter (the language says “occupant” of a public or private space iirc) can legally require you to remove your mask.

It’s really fascinating to me that this is what people make when the barrier to artistic creation disappears. It reminds me of some Youtuber books - they’re written by people with no literary skill or experience, but they produce them because they’ve gotten popular enough that the books are a profitable endeavor regardless of quality. Until you read a Youtuber book you don’t consciously realize what is necessary to write a book, because usually, mostly, only people who have that ineffable something do write novels. And here: you don’t realize what is needed to actually create art and not just images, until you see people with no artistic literacy or skill produce what they think of as art.

Visual art and literature are windows to the soul, and normally only a certain type of person goes through the effort to open that window for us. Here, and in Youtuber books, you can see inside a completely different type of person. And their soul looks like waifus and cowboys.

A lot of women with early life/chronic trauma get told they have borderline even if they don’t fully fit the criteria. It’s a systemic misogyny thing. I wonder if that is what is going on here?

It is common for people with ADHD and/or autism to develop CPTSD as a result of the way we are treated by others and by the world’s inaccessibility. CPTSD absolutely looks like chronic depression with some of the traits of borderline personality disorder. It might be worth considering because there are different treatment options for CPTSD that could be more effective.

Ooblets. It is the game equivalent of a warm hug. Charming, polished, anti-capitalist.

I don’t know about Temu but I use AliExpress frequently in lieu of getting the same item from a reseller on Amazon. Over the years I’ve had a couple of things just not show up ever, but that’s rare - most of the time everything goes as expected. I tend to pick items that have photos from reviewers, and I don’t buy stuff that goes into my mouth/otherwise enters my body.

The Forest for sure, assuming that magical deep rest works even on my ME/CFS. Can’t do any of the others without my health anyway

If I wasn’t sick, though, I’d pick the shop. For stress relief sometimes I enjoy making massive wishlists of items I never actually buy, and this is like the upgraded version of that. Just seems like it’d be fun to wander and marvel and gather and choose… Plus it’s the one that is most likely to be helpful to your outside life and other people you care about.

I feel this is the first of many laws like this. I haven’t felt this deeply crushed, hopeless, and afraid for a very long time. It’s hard to keep going when your life is so small and everyone in power is bent on making it even smaller. I don’t know how I will do it, and sometimes I wish I wouldn’t keep trying.

I am STRESSED about the potential mask ban in North Carolina and I am trying NOT to think about it but it is NOT WORKING

Waking up and feeling exhausted could be caused by sleep disordered breathing (apnea, UARS) or it could be an early sign of ME/CFS, which is a variety of long covid and can present in a delayed fashion from your last infection. Probably it’s something simple like vitamin deficiency or anemia, but these conditions are both mild at first but very bad long term if left unidentified so I thought I’d throw them out there

The single best thing you can do to ensure you’re protecting yourself is to do a home fit test. Surgical masks, KN95s, N95s have generally the same kind of filtration layer; the essential difference is the fit. Is it sealing on your face with <10% leakage, even when worn for long periods and while you speak and make facial expressions? You can’t really know this for sure unless you do a fit test.

It is pretty cheap and easy to do a DIY fit test.

Here’s a video that explains how to do it with a trash bag, some Splenda, and a $7 nebulizer.

Here is a written guide.

There’s a source control version of the Eclipse with no exhalation valve. One could also just cover the exhalation valve with either something impermeable or the electrostatic filtration layer scavenged from a medical mask or respirator if needed.

Other elastomerics that are popular these days:

MSA Advantage (speech diaphragm, with source control)

3M Secure Click (speech diaphragm, great feature where it auto-seal checks for you, no source control)

Honeywell RU8500 (speech diaphragm, no source control)

FloMask (low profile, good speech audibility, source control)

EnvoMask (low profile, source control)

Yeah I think the gut dysbiosis from artificial sweeteners is something that happens on a longer timescale of continuous consumption. I second the tea suggestion - tea’s got l-theanine in it naturally

The sucralose is probably bad for your gut microbiome. If you want caffeine to feel smoother, you could experiment with taking it with l-theanine, and/or with the taurine that’s in that energy drink.

It’s got screws so I could technically open it up, but unfortunately I have very little experience with this sort of thing and wouldn’t be comfortable replacing a lithium battery without any sort of guide.

My Bluetooth speaker died today. Was faltering for a few months, but now it just won’t charge anymore. Shut down last night for the final time. I’ve used it on a daily basis for seven or eight years. It was present for some really important memories. And now it’s just trash, I guess. I know it’s odd of me but I do feel sad.

For me the hardest to replace has been “That’s crazy!” in a neutral/positive connotation for unexpected, off the wall, out of bounds, wild, shocking. Would love to hear other suggestions for this because most replacements I’ve found for “crazy” have negative connotations.

No. Can’t contribute at my current level of disability. Housebound mostly bedbound, extremely limited in the time I can spend sitting upright and socializing or doing cognitive work.

I feel the same way, but I think for most of these people it’s actually about the social rewards/ego strengthening effects and not the material boons. Like, imagine if the constant drumbeat of capitalist society that tells you “you’re disposable, you’re subhuman, you’re nothing” was actually whispering the opposite in your ear. “You’ve won. You’re better than all those wretched people. You are justified, you are sanctified, you made it, you’re gonna live forever.” Like that kind of external motivation and validation is not a recipe for true happiness, but I have to imagine it feels damn good to have all of society’s messaging and all the people you know pretend that you are some elevated class that actually matters.

Honestly I think pretty much everyone should try supplementing magnesium. Estimates vary but some huge portion of the US population is deficient without knowing it. There are different forms of supplemental magnesium - if anyone wants to try a combo that is high quality to quickly see if any form helps, I’d recommend OptiMag Neuro.

I have several of these health issues. Anecdotally I’ve met a lot of people with long covid like me who are neurodivergent, which makes sense because these associated physical issues can put you at higher risk.