Imagine going outside unironically? Euuugh!

I really have an inkling to like, go find a union or something, but I’m terrified of even poking around it’d be so awkward. I always walk by the queer center here and keep walking. What would I say and to whom and why? What is my plan?

When I have income I try to do mutual aid if I can at least.

I’m not. There simply is not a leftist presence where I live.

It ranges from okay to terrible. I massively fucked up with the first political org I’ve joined because I thought it was gonna way more professional and office like that it actually was (I come from super corporate tech so…) so I acted super weird due to trying to mask professional but it turns out people just have sex and do drugs in our office…

The second org I joined after realising people don’t give a shit about professionalism is going pretty well cause I’m just being myself

No. Can’t contribute at my current level of disability. Housebound mostly bedbound, extremely limited in the time I can spend sitting upright and socializing or doing cognitive work.

I am not personable. So I mostly just give money.

I’m an orbiter of a party.

I am actually pretty tight with the leadership for someone who isn’t a formal member.

I take things too seriously and I’m extremely limited in my capacity so I haven’t joined as a member in part because I know that I wouldn’t be able to meet the obligations of a party member and that would wear me down like fuck and I cannot afford to risk doing that plus my priority is my health at the moment due to extremely pervasive burnout.

I contribute financially. I provide back-end support to the party, particularly with regards to digitisation of works and the development of procedures for the community outreach/mutual aid arm of the org because that’s squarely within my skillset and it’s definitely an important niche that needs to be filled. I wish I could fill it better but I wish a lot of things would be different to how they are, I guess.

I never feel like I fit in anywhere tbh, the party included. I think that outsider perspective is useful with regards to development of procedure. I think I’m accepted and that my contributions are valued though.

I was/am one of the originators of the union drive at my work, currently bargaining our first contract. I was burnt out from the work/toxic management/normal life things before, but have completely hit the wall. I am lucky that I’m able to take like a month long vacation from work and in so doing I’m also backing off from the union stuff a bit.

For the positive, I think my excitement and hyperfixation on learning and compiling was probably very much needed to keep momentum. I am very comfortable with everyone I was organizing with and it seemed like I had a knack for kinda getting everyone together. It kinda became a special interest/hyper fixation so I feel like that was a strength. But, I also was so obsessed and would ruminate so much I’d lose sleep thinking about it and strategizing and I think I burned myself out.

It’s been extremely taxing and a complete Rollercoaster ride of exciting, invigorating, demoralizing, and frustrating. I’m AuDHD and so for the first year basically I was going HARD researching everything I could to figure out how to start a union, persuading my coworkers, networking with other unionized social service workers, compiling other contracts to study, reading strategy, acting as a de facto steward, being on the bargaining committee…it’s left me with hardly any energy for work even, much less any other kind of socializing or ability to participate in other political/mutual aid activities…I’m kinda dreading going back to it, because I feel like I’ve really carried the whole process and am so so tired. I’m really proud to be a part of it but I don’t know that I would be able to be the main organizer to herd all the cats as the figure of speech goes, way too taxing for me