• theshatterstone54
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    2 months ago

    A lot of minor things:

    We’re starting a grpup project in uni this year. 3/8 team members met, 1 couldn’t be there, 2 we found online but didn’t get a response from. The other 2 are a mystery. A large chunk of our grade depends on picking our favourite one of 48 projects, which we can’t do cuz we don’t know half the team, and their interests and skillset. Also, I’m feeling massive impostor syndrome. I wasn’t too serious last year, so now I feel like I don’t know anything (I know quite a bit but not nearly to the level I’d be expected to, in any relevant area).

    I’m still having a hard time socialising. Last year, I didn’t do any going out or socialising, even though I was in the perfect environment for it, with flatmates that were going out. This year, flatmates are older, and they’re either in relationships, or just too focused on studying, or they just don’t want to go clubbing necessarily. I have high libido (teen hormones, what can you do) so I want to find a girl but it’s just not going to happen if I don’t go out (and dating apps produced no results so far, I’ve been on them for a year). So what’s the solution? Going out by myself, and looking like a lone weirdo, making approaching girls (did mention I have 0 experience with this) even more difficult?

    My flat is a slight upgrade in some areas, and an annoying downgrade in others. It’s an upgrade in storage space within my room. The wardrobe and drawers are more spacious, to the point where I could properly fit all my clothes and didn’t have to think of what to stash under the bed. BUT the drawers were built by a maniac, who left them looking like they were taken straight out of a wacky animation, or something like Hello Neighbour, one goes left and down, the other goes right and down, the remaining is right and up, and they all conflict each other and I have to lift one up to open the other. Also, the extra space in my room has been traded for virtually no space in the kitchen. One and a half cupboards for all my stuff and barely a fridge shelf? At least I got a full freezer shelf.

    Also, the sudden onset of a sore throat for seemingly no reason a few hours ago has left me slightly concerned. It may or may not be combined with a slightly stuffy nose.

    I’m still trying and failing to get off social media, to get myself to do the right thing immediately, instead of just spending a bunch of time dealing with other stuff, or musing on whether this is the right thing, whether it’s the most efficient way, etc. cuz it’s a waste of time.

    And I still can’t fix my sleep schedule. But that’s mainly a lack of discipline and the presence of procrastination.