While I’m still not sure what to think of it all, I think that I made huge mistakes in assuming the worst and casting aspersions on the entire mod team (minus Dessalines, who I’ve known for a while) after, it seemed to me, that they were simply banning me for a while because I was/am a Communist Party member, or so it seemed to me at the time.

I seemed to get attacked, to my vantage point, by the same two people over and over again and I should’ve just blocked and moved on and not done any smack-talk to them. I realize, after modding Hexbear, that it can be a bit strenuous to mod other communities. I modded for BayArea415, but got too stressed out with the whole process and stepped down.

I’m not sure what else to say and I’m not sure there is much to say, but I am sorry for what happened, and I realized that I kinda missed this place (Lemmygrad).

Hexbear’s great, but so is here, and if one project fails, then we’ll have the other.

As I’ve done so in the past, I’ll try to promote Lemmygrad as much as I can.

Thanks, everyone, for your understanding, ig

I’m dealing with abuse issues and it made me realize that it’s best not to attack others that don’t deserve it or lump everyone or accuse others of just lying when, as far as they’re concerned, they’re just telling the truth as they see it. That’s not a crime or sin. Anyway, like I said, I’ll try to promote Lemmygrad outside the actual website. Also, I lost contact with BayArea415 a while back so I hope to talk with Dessalines later on in DM or wherever.

Good day, comrades. Take care.

Not sure what else to say.

  • TeezyZeezy@lemmygrad.ml
    18·
    8 months ago

    I can’t lie I wasn’t very active last year so I’m a bit out of the loop, but I do remember some beefy comment threads with you involved. Never with me directly tho.

    I’m sure people will welcome you back with open arms. We all make mistakes and get hot-headed

    • Makan@lemmygrad.mlOPEnglish
      10·
      8 months ago

      Yeah, and Hexbear has its own fair share of problems, but I have no ill will toward them.

      Nothing to do with me directly, but I’ve observed some bad behavior there and it’s hard to be a mod 'cause you’re not always making the right call 24/7 so sometimes you make mistakes and the situation, for that time at least, gets worse.

  • Makan@lemmygrad.mlOP
    13·
    8 months ago

    Let me know what you all think, but I guess the moment passed a long time ago, and now nobody cares lol

    Even so, I felt I had to do this.

    • freagle@lemmygrad.mlEnglish
      201·
      8 months ago

      Good on you for writing this up. It’s an exercise in humility and it’s worth having done. Whether it has an impact on others is less relevant than the effect it has on you.

    • Makan@lemmygrad.mlOPEnglish
      8·
      8 months ago

      I liked that little fella.

      I also like The Legend of Zelda: Wind Waker so that makes me doubly like your post.

  • darkcalling@lemmygrad.ml
    9·
    8 months ago

    It happens comrade. We all get worked up sometimes. (And I say this as someone who has experienced this very recently)

    • Makan@lemmygrad.mlOPEnglish
      3·
      8 months ago

      Yeah, I get that, and it’s best to take a step back and wait a few days 'cause I ended up regretting it.

  • ☭CommieWolf☆@lemmygrad.ml
    7·
    8 months ago

    Good to see you back, and the apology is appreciated, I hope you’re forgiven. I remember you from the video game related posts you’d make each week. And the “AmAs” that you left under each weekly thread.

    Tell me American, how does it feel to be back?

    • Makan@lemmygrad.mlOPEnglish
      4·
      8 months ago

      I don’t really view myself as an “American” except as legally a citizen and that’s about it.

      But I guess I count if we’re not being purely subjective or objective or whatever.

      It feels great to be back, btw. :)