One of the fun parts about being trans is now there’s this name that the government and most strangers recognize me as that I and my close friends don’t, but every time I think about the fact that I have a deadname now, I keep getting struck by this strange feeling that my deadname never felt like mine, even through years of me actively using it as my name. I remember trying to change it was I was about 17 but I never did because I only tried to think of masc names. For as long as I can remember, I could never look at my deadname and feel like it was mine. I didn’t like it and it felt strange to even associate that name with me; I only ever did because the only alternative I could think of was just not having a name, which would have been a massive inconvenience. I never even really thought it was a bad name, I just hated it for me
Did anyone else ever feel like this or am I just crazy?
I never liked my old name but only because it’s way too common. There were always like 2 other kids in every class with the same name.
I kid you not, my dad wanted to name me Vanguard, but my mom wouldn’t let him.
I’ve been pissed about this my whole life
Are you going to legally change it to Vanguard now? /hj
Nah, I need a girl name now.
Maybe Vanguardenia 🌹
It;s been a month now, but If you’d like a shorter name I would recommend Vanguardia, it still carries the impact perfectly into the other gender in my opinion! ✨
